Yesterday morning, the news came from the QQ Group broke the silence when we were having a free time after French class. Although I didn’t know the details but I’ve guessed what it was mainly about. After it a short time, my idea was confirmed that it was actually about the results of TEM4, which we took last semester. Some of my classmates were shouting and crying for passing the exam, while others just sat on the table without a word. The class was totally in mess, but I still didn’t find my name on the list yet, a kind of feeling contained disappointment and anxiety occurred to me. Eventually, I saw my name and details, 72, NOT BAD, which surprised me a lot and I couldn’t help crying and control my emotions.
To be honest, just after the day I took the exam, I had assessed my exam performance and draw a conclusion that I might just pass the exam but not too high in scores. But I was anxious to know the final result, as nobody could knew what it would be like until the last moment. After all, my feeling was not reliable sometimes. For instance, I’ve taken CET6 two times, and the first time it was really difficult but I passed with the scores 491, not so high but enough, then I took the next one expecting to getting more scores. The second one, at least in my opinion, was so easy that I finished all questions in advance. And I was confident to expect that maybe I could get the scores as high as 600. However, when the result came that I only got 471, I was shocked and couldn’t believe the cure reality. Those days were suffering and painful, you know, as an English major student, it was embarrassing and unacceptable to say that your performance in the exam was not as well as those who majored in science and technology. Even I got 491 in the first exam, it was still far from the standard level. As time went by, the uncomfortable feelings fade away but I did know my English needs to be greatly improved with time and efforts. If not, I would fail again and again, maybe the next was not just about the exam but my job or even the future.
Anyway, I considered TEM4 was relatively easy this year especially during the exam I came across some familiar questions that I did wrong and made corrections before. The easier the exam was, the more uncertainty there was. And before the news, I had complicated feelings, and I didn’t know what to do. On the one hand, I was eager to know the result and hope it confirm my judgement. On the other hand, I didn’t dare to imagine what it would like if I didn’t pass and became a little disturbed especially I heard that there were revolution about the exams next year.
Luckily, at last my efforts didn’t pay off that I got the unexpected good results and my heart hung down. In my opinion, in some ways, it was due to the bad feelings about the failure of CET6 that inspired me working harder to prepare the exam those days. Honestly, I ever consider that the joyful feelings would keep very long, maybe for several weeks, but it was not. Just after the crazy moment of shouting and crying, in the afternoon I came back to normal, then I even felt a little upset and exhausted because a heavy task occupied in my mind was finally done and I seemed to lost my goals and way temporary. Of course, I knew TEM4 was just a part of our school life, and the road head was full of challenges and opportunities. As long as we live, we can never halt working and striving.
Reagan
Wednesday, October 21, 2015
To be honest, just after the day I took the exam, I had assessed my exam performance and draw a conclusion that I might just pass the exam but not too high in scores. But I was anxious to know the final result, as nobody could knew what it would be like until the last moment. After all, my feeling was not reliable sometimes. For instance, I’ve taken CET6 two times, and the first time it was really difficult but I passed with the scores 491, not so high but enough, then I took the next one expecting to getting more scores. The second one, at least in my opinion, was so easy that I finished all questions in advance. And I was confident to expect that maybe I could get the scores as high as 600. However, when the result came that I only got 471, I was shocked and couldn’t believe the cure reality. Those days were suffering and painful, you know, as an English major student, it was embarrassing and unacceptable to say that your performance in the exam was not as well as those who majored in science and technology. Even I got 491 in the first exam, it was still far from the standard level. As time went by, the uncomfortable feelings fade away but I did know my English needs to be greatly improved with time and efforts. If not, I would fail again and again, maybe the next was not just about the exam but my job or even the future.
Anyway, I considered TEM4 was relatively easy this year especially during the exam I came across some familiar questions that I did wrong and made corrections before. The easier the exam was, the more uncertainty there was. And before the news, I had complicated feelings, and I didn’t know what to do. On the one hand, I was eager to know the result and hope it confirm my judgement. On the other hand, I didn’t dare to imagine what it would like if I didn’t pass and became a little disturbed especially I heard that there were revolution about the exams next year.
Luckily, at last my efforts didn’t pay off that I got the unexpected good results and my heart hung down. In my opinion, in some ways, it was due to the bad feelings about the failure of CET6 that inspired me working harder to prepare the exam those days. Honestly, I ever consider that the joyful feelings would keep very long, maybe for several weeks, but it was not. Just after the crazy moment of shouting and crying, in the afternoon I came back to normal, then I even felt a little upset and exhausted because a heavy task occupied in my mind was finally done and I seemed to lost my goals and way temporary. Of course, I knew TEM4 was just a part of our school life, and the road head was full of challenges and opportunities. As long as we live, we can never halt working and striving.
Reagan
Wednesday, October 21, 2015
