新年快乐，亲爱的。

嘘，我好像只剩我自己了。

我只求 你可以不要对他说 你的那些秘密

不要对他说 你也会害怕 别对他说 多晚都会等他的电话

求求你了 别丢下我

沒人懂我了 我想是我自己拋棄我自己了

是的回不去了 我爱了你5个月了

这个帖子也四年啦 入驻这里七年啦

说点啥

what r u up to??
its been almost 10 yrs since i came here . a lot had happened and some were recorded and some were not . but still i appreciate all that happened to me .
looking back since my last post here , in these yrs i lived in uk jinan guangzhou shanghai , and been to business trip in different cities .
i haven’t changed a lot while i also changed a lot . like the way i live , things i like, haven’t changed. yet the way i treat ppl , how i deal relationships , changed a lot .
but still , i appreciate them all . hope i can be a better ppl , and u too .

to me almost 6 yrs ago:
finally it gets to a closure. i met him in a totally different way and different role. i was in his city, which i have been looking forward to for a long time and i was in his flat and we slept in the same bed, while nothing had happened.
i mean it means a lot to me, and even he didn’t fuck w me, (which leads to a certain level of self doubt, jk) i still appreciate. i mean i might be fucking crying if he did fuck me lol. but i am not regretting that we didn’t fuck. haha
anyways, this allows me to have more space for myself to rethink the whole shit. if i really did love him, well, the answer might be yes, but more like 不甘心. however, he still plays the most important role in my life. i will def go for him anytime he need.
anyway.. good luck ;)